Good News: He might actually like me!

Today I promised myself that before homeroom I would find Man-pretty and talk to him. For this week it's seemed that we haven't really talked at all, so I wanted to show that I am making an effort in this relationship too.
I went into the lab and was talking to Black. She said that last night she made a joke that "She won't even have to get on her knees" and apparently Man-pretty started yelling at her and threatening her! Personally, I think that's really sweet that he would stick up for me like that even when I wasn't there.
When I finally went up to him and talked to him it was friggin' awesome. We talked about some crap and there was this really weird silence, but it wasn't an awkward silence. We both just sat there in the armchairs in the library and looked at each other. Yeah, he loves my shoes. We took off our shoes and had our feet on the table. It was really fun 'cause we put our feet together and started wiggling our toes. It sounds really lame, but I liked it.
Mr. Z wasn't here today, so we had homeroom in Mrs. M's room. She sent us into the library, which is Man-pretty's homeroom.
The assembly was whicked. The guy, Karl, who played the piano, guitar, and trombone was freaking hot. Seriously, I almost ran up to him and started humping his leg...okay, maybe not, but that would've been amusing.
Yeah, Pink Piggy and I decided that we were going to sit on either side of Whelk Boy. I think he felt slightly uncomfortable with an ex-girlfriend on each side. I tried talking to him, but I didn't know what to say.
I stayed after to help with the freshman painting project thing today and yesterday. I love helping with that crap!

My Marinesco was here!

Okay, Marinesco's new name is Nimrod because that is her school mascot and it sounds friggin' awesome. Anyhow, she came to town this weekend. She called me and asked if I wanted to spend the night at her grandparents' house. When she and her sister came to pick me up we talked about Man-pretty and how he was working. Nimrod desperately wanted to go to IGA, so we did. That was really fun seeing Man-pretty at work. He was running around the store saying "We don't have a pound can of that!" Yeah, he stopped and talked to us for like five minutes which was friggin' awesome. He is so damn skinny it angers me...okay, maybe not, but still. He tried pushing out his non-existant belly & was like "I'm fat!" Okay, maybe it was only funny to me.
Nimrod and I stayed up and talked forever. Then we fell asleep in the pull out couch while watching the STUPIDEST movie ever.
A very exciting weekend. Yeah, I'm talking to Man-pretty now, so I'm gonna go.

I love trees!

Wow, Chicken Giggles is my favorite. I didn't hear the whole joke, but I heard the word "woody" and laughed. It was something like, "Why do tree lovers love trees? Well, they're just giant woodies!" Yeah, I apologize for slaughtering your joke, Chicken Giggles.
Band was friggin' awesome. We had to clean out instruments and crap. Some of it was seriously scary. For washing out brass instruments we had to go to the guy's bathroom/dressing room thingy 'cause it has this gigantious sink. So I was in the guy's dressing room with Man-pretty, Reverse Mullet Boy, and Chicken Giggles' prom date Mr. Lord of the Dance.
Very fun. Especially the part when Man-pretty got some nasty green crap on his face and wipped it off with his shirt...his boxers were sticking out a little bit ; ) OH YEAH BABY!
LOL
Lunch was really great. His friends didn't talk to me at all, but they really didn't talk to him very much either. Volleyball sat by us for a few minutes, so we stared at her because she hated it so friggin' badly. It was great. I guess we talked quite a bit today.
Yeah, in American Studies, we were all doing Psoriasis' hair. Victim told me that it's funny seeing Man-pretty and I together because he thinks he's a sucky boyfriend, I think I'm a shitty girlfriend, and we don't know what to do. She says it's so cute because we both look awkward around eachother. Not quite sure on how exactly that's cute!

That was a weird conversation!

Today was a lot better than yesterday. Man-pretty's friends acknowledged that I'm there, which is cool. One of them even said stuff to me! I still liked it a lot more when they left though. That was when he talked a lot more. Joked around was a lot more like it. He kept doing this thing with his eyebrows; it was very cute. Then we were talking about something that reminded me of the conversation we had last night. Wow that was awkward!
Anyway, I actually understood geometry today, which was a plus! I don't think I failed my science test.
Yay! Man-pretty's online. Well, I'm gonna go talk to him now!

I can work around this!

Alright, I can overcome a lot of challenges, but this is a big one. Yesterday during lunch,
Man-pretty's band-mate people actually talked to me a little bit, but then one of them said something that implied he doesn't like me. Okay, that's fine. But today, when I was sitting next to Man-pretty, every time I tried saying something to him one of the guys would butt in and stop me. That's okay though, because I really like Man-pretty and I don't care if his friends don't like me! After they left, Man-pretty talked to me...then he ate some ketchup packets.
This morning before homeroom I was in the lab. That's where Man-pretty and Black's (his
ex-girlfriend) homeroom is. Black told me that he's a bad kisser, so I told her about my prior kissing experiances. He came in and she told him NOT to drool on me. Then he was like, "There's one good thing about being a paedophile. A guy's dick looks really big in those small hands!" That was...amusing. A few other things were said that weren't quite a s appropriate as that...if that's possible.
I love having a boyfriend, it's friggin' awesome. He asked me if I needed a ride home today, but lucky me, I had to stay after to retake my geometry test.
Yeah, after I finished my test, Mr. C asked me what was going on? "Don't you have time to study as much anymore?" He actually thinks I study. That's great!

Great and wonderful day!

Last night (after I posted), I was talking to Man-pretty online. When he had to leave, he said that he was going to talk me tomorrow (now today). Just keep that in mind while I tell you about the rest of my day.
Pink Piggy and I had to give a presentation on Stromboli today in science. It sucked horribly. Then in geometry Mr. C yelled at me because I didn't understand the makeup work I had because I was gone. That made me feel like shit.
Band was band. Afterwards, I was standing against the wall waiting for the bell to ring when Man-pretty walked up to me. He asked what was new & I said nothing much. Yeah, then I told him he smelled good. The bell rang and we walked down the hall.
Then he was all like, "Wanna go out?" I couldn't believe he asked me that. I was like, "What!?!?" He repeated himself and I said sure. So now Man-pretty and I are going out. Very exciting stuff.
I got to sit by him and some of the other guys in his band during lunch. One of them yelled at Man-pretty for bringing his "ass monkey" to the table. Man-pretty told me that he thinks Brad Pitt is hot. Is it bad that my boyfriend and I talked about Brad Pitt during lunch? Hehe.
During English we started working on the bridge project. That was fun. I was watching the clock in 4th block so I could go into the hall and smile at my boyfriend. WHOA, IT FEELS REALLY WEIRD SAYING THAT!!! I am so confused right now. I mean, I am so friggin' happy it's not even funny, but I don't know what to do. I've liked Man-pretty for 7 months, and now we're..........you get the picture.

I apologize to Chicken Giggles, My Favorite Blonde, and Perfectionist!

Today actually seemed to go really fast, which was a big surprise because it's Monday. Last night, I was talking to Man-pretty online and junk. Yeah, he sent me an e-mail telling about all these chicks that hit on him when he was on the German trip. Some girl even tried feeling him up! Why on earth would he tell me this...unless he's trying to make me jealous!
Yeah, I e-mailed him and asked him if the purpose of the e-mail was actually to make me jealous. Who really knows........
Seeing him again made me happy, I mean, I hadn't seen him since Wednesday! Seeing everyone was friggin' great since I wasn't at school Friday.
My presentation kicked ass today. Okay, maybe my portion didn't (I apologize to Chicken Giggles, My Favorite Blonde, and Perfectionist [she told me she prides herself in being a perfectionist]) go as great as the other people in my group...but it was better than the Menominee group. I cannot believe she just sat down in the middle of her thing and was done with it!

P.S. I have come to the conclusion that I want to go to college in Madison. I mean, when I was there for State, I was constantly in awe by the University and the surroundings. I really don't care if it's supposed to the the hardest school to get into in the state (plus the most expensive); I want to go there.

He who shall forever remain nameless

State: What can I say about it. It friggin' rocked! Alright, so we left at like 9:00 Friday morning. The drive to Madison was four of the best hours of my life. Not the best, but really awesome. I feel that if I was three years older, I would probably be friends with the four seniors that went. Homecoming Queen Candidate was one of them (for those of you who don't know who I'm talking about, think back to Homecoming...who plastered the school in "Vote *****" stuff?). I had to share a bed with her. She's really cool.
Then there was He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless. There was this guy, and stuff. We didn't fool around or anything, but he payed attention to me, which I haven't had a guy do for so long. I felt incredibly awkward because for the first time in like, 7 months all I could think about was a guy who was not Man-pretty. I mean, He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless is nothing in comparison, but he was nice to me and that was all I cared about. I'm not saying who he is, or what school he goes to because it's too much.
Anyway, back to Forensics. I got lost in down-town Madison. When we got there we were all attacked by a drunk, homeless man.
I competed and wouldn't look at my paper right away. I rolled it up and walked out. I met up with Homecoming Queen Candidate and I let her look at what I got. Then she accidentally told me that I got a 24!!! A 24 is out of 25. I got a second place as a freshman...which is outstanding!
When I got home, however, it wasn't as cool. My dad and his girlfriend were upset that I went shopping on State Street. Then today, my dad's girlfriend told me "It wouldn't hurt if you lost 10 pounds." Oh, I wanted to scream "HYPOCRIT" so loudly. I mean, my doctor told me that I'm normal weight for someone my height. She's not. It ruined my ever-so-wonderful weekend. Okay, maybe not because now I'm talking to Man-pretty. But he sent me an e-mail saying that this weekend he had a bunch of chicks hitting on him and some chick tried feeling him up! So maybe I shouldn't feel guilty about He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless!

What a friggin' douche!

Today I found out what it would be like if I had no friends. Seriously, almost all (not everyone went!) of my friends weren't at school today. A bunch of Freshmen went to Government day and a bunch of Juniors went on the German trip...including Man-pretty. He's going to be gone until Sunday.
During homeroom I actually managed to listen to the announcements and junk. They said that all the people going to State forensics this weekend had to go to the office to pick up a work completion form, which means I'm going to miss school. I didn't know that we were going to leave tomorrow after homeroom, spend the night in Madison, and then preform on Saturday. But hey, it's fine with me!
I found out today that my ex, Whelk Boy, is going to be in band next year. He's totally going to ruin the tuba section! Man-pretty plays the tuba. Since Whelk Boy is going to be in band, that means we'll have the same lunch and be in the same English classes for the next three years. Don't get me wrong, he's nice and everything, but since he broke up with me he treats me like I'm an idiot and that I can't do anything for myself.
Oh my goodness; Mr. H's substitute, Mr. S, is a friggin' douche bag! He was taking roll call or whatever you call it and when he got to my name he made fun of it. Am I wrong in thinking that teachers aren't supposed to make fun of you? I don't mean that he made a joke, he was all like: "What kind of spelling is that? Look at that, that's not how you spell ****!" Of course, I yelled at him; who wouldn't? That was incredibly rude...I think I should report him to the office, but I won't.

Wish me luck at State!!!

Crap!

I expected the American Studies test to be unbearibly hard because I only studied for 15 minutes. Yeah, I was wrong. For the last test, I studied for two hours...and that was just the night before, not counting any days prior.
My lesson today kicked ass. I might be getting K's French horn because she got a new one. She also forgot to go to our lesson & Mr. K spent the entire time telling me how much I've improved this year!
Chicken Giggles (formally Peanuts) had her Prom pictures lost by IGA (YET ANOTHER REASON WHY IGA IS FRIGGIN' EVIL!!!) I plan on making copies of some of my pics to give to her. Wow, this was a really eventful day!
Tomorrow some people from band (myself included) get to go to the nursing home to play them stuff from Solo & Ensemble. Fun fun! I actually am excited for it.

IGA sucks ass!

Prom kicked ass. Seriously, I had tons of fun. I danced with all my dawgs. It was slightly disturbing when those two seniors started stripping. Don't get me wrong, I like guys, but they had so much muscle it was........well, they're not my type! However, I really enjoyed it when the were doing the robot and break dancing.
Of course, I looked fantastic...for my standards anyhow. I really wish Man-pretty would have seen me though. When I e-mailed him Thursday I kinda figured he wouldn't get the e-mail until this weekend, which would mean it would be too late for Prom.
I was proven right when he responded to it. Wanna hear the shitty part that makes me feel ever so happy and like crap at the same time?!?! This is how he started his response:
Hey
Yeah, it's Sunday now. I would've asked, actually, but I had to work all day yesterday, like literally, from 1-8:30, and I had charcoal all over me after work from moving it around, so I looked like crap.

So he was going to ask me to go with him to Prom, but he knew he had to work. That, or he was going to ask me to dance. I'm not quite sure what he meant by "asking". I hate IGA with a passion now. I mean, I don't, but it seriously sucks! After that, he said that if he would've went, he would want it to be special.
Wow, I feel bad now. I want to respond to the e-mail, but I don't know what to say. If anybody has any suggestions please let me know!!!

And it finally happens!

Two days of absolute.....funness and now this. Okay, so it wasn't that bad. I mean, today when I went to band, I opened up my cage and there was a CD in it. It was from Man-pretty! That made me happy, but it didn't make up for the fact that he's not going to Prom.
That's right, I have been looking forward to Prom for so long just so I could dance with and today I find out he's not going. He didn't even sit by us today at lunch. I mean, I really didn't expect him to, but the one day I had something I really, desperately wanted to ask him and I didn't get a chance to. He and I were in the lunch line together though. That made me giggle. I was wearing my "KISS ME QUICK!" shirt and he read it. Only when he read the "quick" part he turned his head and brought it really, really close to my "dug" (boobies). He's perverted, but I actually think he didn't mean it like that 'cause I know it's hard to read that shirt. LOL
Yeah, I really want to e-mail him and tell him stuff, but I don't think he would get it until Saturday night. So sad! :'(

Two days in a row!

Okay, I just found this kinda funny because it's so true! It's my horoscope for today.

Pisces: Is this an instant replay of yesterday? It just might be -- as far as your heart is concerned, at least. You're still feeling extremely nostalgic, and particularly focused on the past. Don't be too upset about it, though. We're all entitled to take those emotional strolls down Memory Lane every now and then, and your sign has even more of a right. Right now, it's your turn -- and not a moment too soon.

Alright, so today rocked! In geometry, we got our tests back and I had 108% on my test that I was scared I was going to fail.
Back to the interesting stuff. During lunch I didn't expect Man-pretty to sit next to us again! He likes to rub his nipples a lot. Just as a joke of course, but I told him that he should stop 'cause I was gonna laugh too much...so he was like "You don't want me to rub my nipples? Does that mean you want me to rub yours?" That kinda made me laugh. Okay, I laughed a lot when he said that. Though, it was slightly disturbing. Then we talked about lots of stuff.
Pink Piggy and OA were all like "You should ask him if he's goin' to Prom with anybody...He wasn't just sitting there because he had no where else to sit. He sat there because you were there." That made me feel good.
After school, I was walkin' on the path over that gigantious hill and I saw his car. I just kept walking and stuff, but when I crossed the parking lot exit I crossed infront of his car. Yeah, he honked his horn at me and waved. He had this huge smile on his face when he did it too. It was friggin' awesome. I smiled the entire way home. I can't remember the last time I was this happy. I mean, it feels so good!

Hung like a Teddy Grahm

Confused? You should be.
Today during band we were discussing where we should go for next year's music trip. Personally, I am already excited about it. Except, I'm not all too thrilled about going with SOME of the 8th graders. I mean, I like a lot of them, but not ALL of them. If my opinion counted (for this anyway), I would want to go to D.C. because I have never been there, plus it's the farthest away from here!
Today during lunch, Pink Piggy and I had been sitting there when Man-pretty just plopped down beside me. Yeah, I was kinda scared at first! He said he just didn't want to sit where he usually does. That was fine with me!
We talked about everything. He said it would be funny to see me kicked by a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader as long as I wasn't too hurt. Then the conversation went to the Teddy Grahms. Exactly what gender are they? I tore apart a peanut and gave one of them boobs, so Man-pretty took a sunflower seed and gave it a wang. "Wow, I think I just came up with a new saying: I'm hung like a Teddy Grahm!" He's hilarious. I had to remind him that if he said that around somebody who didn't know about the modified grain bear, that they would think him small in the pants.
The sad thing is, the entire time I was talking with him and Pink Piggy I had this thought running through my head:
What if I really would be happier if we remained "just friends"?

An uneventful day

Wow, I did almost nothing today. J's dilemma was a bit disstressing however. I am currently studying for my American Studies test. Joy joy.
I have come to the conclusion that posting these things is what to do. This one, I kinda swipped from Dora's blog (what do you think of that one!). Dora, you know who you are! LOL

first best friend: some guy named Matt, it was Kindergarten
first car: '95 Ford Escort...it's this color
first screen name: I really can't remember
first funeral: my great-grandma
first pet: Shadow...a cat that's still alive...she's 21 in people years
first piercing/tattoos: my ears are pierced & I plan on getting my belly button pierced when I'm 16 or so.
first credit card: not old enough
first big trip: I've only been to 3 states outside this one
first music you remeber hearing in your house: I'm gonna have to say Annie Lennox, who still rocks
first job: I guess babysitting
first crush: Tyler Wadzinski (does anyone see anything odd about this person...like his name?)

LASTS
last car ride: my dad drivin' me to my mom's
last kiss: I haven't been kissed in such a long time...over a year
last good cry: the other day...Wednesday I believe
last book read: the last book I finished...um, Knots and Crosses
last movie seen in theaters: Wow, I think it was Shark Tale...that's sad
last food consumed: Pizza...hey, I just realized I had pizza for dinner and lunc...LOL
last crush: Man-pretty
last phone call: my dad...he woke me up from a nap
last big trip: to Mall of America
last shoes worn: my ankle boots that have singe marks on them from when I lit myself on fire
last time scolded: I don't know
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: not at the moment
last hug: i can't remember...is that sad?

SPECIFICS
do you do drugs: Only the ones that I am perscribed
what kind of shampoo do you use: Garnier Fructis
what are you most scared of: rejection
where you want to get married: in order for me to get married, I am going to have to have a boyfriend, and to have a boyfriend, I need to either find a different guy who likes me, or get Man-pretty to cooperate
how many buddies are online: none
do you sleep nude: when it's hot out
what do you look for in the opposite sex: read the poem I wrote in English...that sums it up pretty well
one night stand: it depends I guess...currently, I'm too young
boxers or briefs: boy shorts
would you marry outside your race: of course
would you make out with just a friend: very much so...YES!!! hey Man-pretty, you said that we're friends right? ; )
would you have sex with just a friend: it depends on how good of a friend they were

FAVORITES
colors: red or pink
foods: pretty much anything, except fish
sports: soccer and the dance team

HAVE YOU EVER
smoked: no
bungee jumped: no
made yourself throw up: yes
skinny dipped: not that I recall...although I probably wouldn't pass it up
been in love: I am currently debating that issue
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no
pictured your crush naked: OF COURSE!!! I had a dream about that the other night! ; )
fallen for your best friend: yeah
done something you regret: I think everyone has
been caught doing the deed: exactly what deed?

CURRENT
clothes: pajama pants & shirt
music: i'm watchin' TV...but I think in a minute I will put in HOT FUSS by The Killers
make up: whatever is still on from this morning
annoyance: my headache/muscle spasm
smell: my American Studies notebook 'cause my face is planted in it
desktop picture: Danny Smith baby!!! (see one of the previous posts)
book your reading: The Dark Tower IV: Wizard and Glass by Stephen King...yeah, Man-pretty is lending it to me
underwear: some kinda cute maroon things i found in my closet this morning

ARE YOU
understanding: I try to be
open minded: Yes, very much so
hungry: Not really
moody: yes
healthy: Not very...I am currently on three different prescriptions
bored easily: very much so
angry: I really don't get angry & when I do, I don't stay that way
sad: generally, yes
dissappointed: only when it comes to myself
happy: hmmm...most people would say yes, but not always
hyper: Lemons and Hyper are like synonymms (that's not spelt correctly)
talkative: I'm 15 and I'm female
easy: to get along with or sexually? hmmm...I haven't gotten any action in over a year.........
honest: I try to be
open to new things: of course

I don't care what he says, he loves me!!!

Can anyone tell that I am estatic? Friday night (after I posted, otherwise it would have been included) I talked with Man-pretty. Prior to that, I had been talking to BB (sorry, BB, I know it's a really lame name, but I'm still thinkin') and bitchin' about how Man-pretty's a douche and all that crap.
Yeah, I didn't know what else to say! I was really surprised that he apologized though. It was really sweet of him! Yeah, we talked for a while more and he gave me the address of my new favorite website. I'm not sure whether I had a part in him breaking up with Black. I mean, I probably didn't, but I did look kinda pathetic when I talked to him the other day...it was hard not to cry.

Yesterday, my mom scared the crap out of me. She called crying and saying that she was going to the emergency room. Obviously, I started crying too. She thought her appendix was going to explode...yeah, she went and now she's on medication. They haven't quite established what it is, but they said whatever it is, it's minor. That was a relief.
Today I found out that Victim IS moving. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. The good thing is, the area that she's moving to is near some people that we visit a lot, and when we're there I can probably visit her. Yeah, my dad was all like, "I like the house they live in, we should move in there." I really think we should because then she'll have my address to write, her house will remind me of her....and the fact that it's a ten minute walk from Man-pretty's house. I don't know, my dad has been saying that we're gonna move out of this crapy house for quite some time now and it still hasn't happened. I hope she doesn't move soon, because I want more time with my Victim!

Am I actually in a good mood?

Yesterday, during geometry, we had a study day. Black's in my class and when she finished her work she came up to me and we talked for about ten minutes. I was reminded of the fact that I like her; I mean, she's really nice and I want to get to know her better. I guess I'm not mad at her. She doesn't know how I feel toward Man-pretty. Talking to her made me feel better for some reason. I guess just talking to people helps...LOL!
Okay, today during geometry Mr. C was being really kinda gross. That's all I have to say on that.
I walked into band today and I think I caught Man-pretty starin' at me a little bit. I mean, he might not have been, but I'm almost positive. I don't know now. Maybe I just wish he was.
Shorty told Pink Piggy that Man-pretty wants to break up with Black because he doesn't like her. If he does/did that would be nice for me. I feel bad saying that, but it hurts seeing her sitting in the passenger seat of his light blue Malibu.