Painful Feelings

It hurts to like him.

I cry because I care too much.

I know I don't love him,

but I'd love to be with him.

The problem is I don't want to be with him.

What would I be to him?

Just another girl he couldn't turn down.

How would I know whether or not I mattered?
If only he could look at me and see half the admiration I see when I see him.

How wonderful that would be.

Too bad that only happens in my fantasies.

But why should it?

Don't I deserve to be cared for and respected?

He knows my feelings all too well.

I wish he could see that this is much more than just a simple crush.

I doubt it's love, but it has to be something.