An albino black

That's my new label.

Blah.

Today was wonderful. I felt so pretty. Don't ask why. It just seemed like my hair did what I wanted it to, my makeup didn't smear, and my clothes looked good.

Is it bad I think that? I usually think I look like crap, but today I felt decent.

So I was thinking....I REALLY don't want to go to my junior prom alone. A while ago I said I was going alone because I wanted to go alone. Yeah, I told HWSFRN that I decided I was going to prom alone. His response: "How long did it take you to figure that out?"

Hm. Makes me wonder...could I get a date if I wanted to?
No.
Seriously. The guys I talk to pretty much are all shacked up or hate me. I mean, yeah...I don't want to go alone or with a group of friends and just be like "I'm too cool for this."

I don't even want to go.
I do, but I know I'll end up depressed and go home crying.

My mom's mad at me.
So some military recruiter called. I want to hear what he has to say. My mom, on the other hand, almost started crying and said I can't do it.
It pisses me off. She won't even let me decide what I want to do for myself. It's my freaking decision what I want to do with my life, but she won't even let me CONSIDER it.
Yeah, I probably won't go into the military, but it just pisses me off that she won't let me make my own decision regarding MY LIFE.

"Cry Over Me" --Meat Loaf

It's so easy for you
to feel nothing for me
Did you ever feel anything?

I want you to cry over me
Die over me
Even for a moment
I want you to hurt over me
Feel what I feel
I want you to cry over
Die over me
Baby, just one time.

I want your heart broken
Some sign of emotion
Wanna see the tears tumble down
Show me I meant something
And that you feel nothing
But your world crashing to the ground