National Pick on Me Day

I was unaware that today was the day to make fun of me. First off, I had Chicken Giggles (formerally Peanuts) making fun of the fact that I am scared to kiss Man-pretty. Then I had Cookies make fun of me when she asked if I had at least hugged him in the two weeks (YAY!) that he and I have been dating. I had to say no. For those of you who don't know who I'm talking about when I say Cookies, she is very pretty, smart, and athletic.
Then of course there was geometry. I cannot even come up with a name for this guy. If you go to school in Philly I garuntee you know who he is. He's barely taller than I am, a junior, lots of facial hair, a very distinctive voice, and the most embarrassing name I have ever heard. He is a very nice guy though. I have a very strong suspician that he doesn't talk to a whole lot of girls though, I'm not really sure why, he's really nice. Anyway, he was totally raggin' on me all class. It was done in a nice manner though because what he was saying WAS funny. Except when he said, "You know, I'm not sure who's more needy. You or Man-pretty."
During lunch I almost died. I started choking on a grape and everyone was laughing because they thought I was laughing or something. It was really scary because I couldn't breathe. Man-pretty asked if I was alright and I got up and ran to the bathroom because I thought I had to throw up. Pink Piggy came in and told me that when I got up and ran Man-pretty looked really concerned about me. When I came back he told me he was going to go after me, but I had gone into the girls' bathroom. Then during English Dora said that he said some other stuff that sounded like he was concerned.
The thing is, I had been planning on kissing him during lunch. Not like making out, but like on the cheek. Then I almost died, and I felt embarrassed, so I didn't do it.
Chicken Giggles made me write him a note, so I did. In that note I told him that I was going to kiss him. Then I did the craziest thing: I gave the note to him! He took it and said he was going to read it at work. Well he's been at work for about 3 1/2 hours now!

Love is Only a Feeling by The Darkness

The first flush of youth was upon you when our eyes first met
And I knew that to you and into your life I had to get
I felt light-headed at the touch of this stranger's hand
An assault my defences systematically failed to withstand

'Cause you came at a time
When the pursuit of one true love in which to fall
Was the be all and end all

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting Away)
When I'm in your arms I start beleiving
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway

The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed

That the light of my life
Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
Just to beam on you and I

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting Away)
When I'm in your arms I start believing
(It's here to stay)
But love is only a feeling
Anyway, anyway

Love is only a feeling
(Drifting Away)
And we've got to stop ourselves believing
(It's here to stay)
'Cause love is only a feeling
Anyway

Yeah, this song reminds me of Man-pretty (obviously) because I don't want to love him, I cannot physically love him without hurting myself. The thing is, every day I find myself caring for him more than I want to allow myself to. I'm starting not to care whether or not I get hurt by it.

Great News: He said he likes me and why!

Yeah, Friday Victim, Pink Piggy, Skinny, and myself walked home and went to IGA to see Man-pretty and to buy batteries. Yeah, he was stocking the asile with all the tampons, pads, condoms, and pregnancy tests. Then we went to Skinny's house for like half an hour. There was this guy there who was hitting on me. It was creepy because he's in the 6th grade. He was like, "Can I have a hug?" and before I could say no he was on me. When we got back to my house I e-mailed Man-pretty about a very interesting subject that I will not mention here! However, I will say that his response was a good/sweet one that makes me want him even more.
Pink Piggy, Victim, and I went shopping and it was freakin' awesome. I was ripped off on a CD...that was edited!
Tonight I came online and that was when I read Man-pretty's response to my e-mail. I e-mailed back and said something and then he IMed me the answer. Then he was all like "I have no clue why you want me!" Then he was like "I like you cause your short and cute and can fit in my trunk even with the spare tire." Now we're talking about how I want to kiss him and how I think he's sexy. He's all excited because he found out that I wasn't joking when I said "yeah."

Good News: He might actually like me!

Today I promised myself that before homeroom I would find Man-pretty and talk to him. For this week it's seemed that we haven't really talked at all, so I wanted to show that I am making an effort in this relationship too.
I went into the lab and was talking to Black. She said that last night she made a joke that "She won't even have to get on her knees" and apparently Man-pretty started yelling at her and threatening her! Personally, I think that's really sweet that he would stick up for me like that even when I wasn't there.
When I finally went up to him and talked to him it was friggin' awesome. We talked about some crap and there was this really weird silence, but it wasn't an awkward silence. We both just sat there in the armchairs in the library and looked at each other. Yeah, he loves my shoes. We took off our shoes and had our feet on the table. It was really fun 'cause we put our feet together and started wiggling our toes. It sounds really lame, but I liked it.
Mr. Z wasn't here today, so we had homeroom in Mrs. M's room. She sent us into the library, which is Man-pretty's homeroom.
The assembly was whicked. The guy, Karl, who played the piano, guitar, and trombone was freaking hot. Seriously, I almost ran up to him and started humping his leg...okay, maybe not, but that would've been amusing.
Yeah, Pink Piggy and I decided that we were going to sit on either side of Whelk Boy. I think he felt slightly uncomfortable with an ex-girlfriend on each side. I tried talking to him, but I didn't know what to say.
I stayed after to help with the freshman painting project thing today and yesterday. I love helping with that crap!

My Marinesco was here!

Okay, Marinesco's new name is Nimrod because that is her school mascot and it sounds friggin' awesome. Anyhow, she came to town this weekend. She called me and asked if I wanted to spend the night at her grandparents' house. When she and her sister came to pick me up we talked about Man-pretty and how he was working. Nimrod desperately wanted to go to IGA, so we did. That was really fun seeing Man-pretty at work. He was running around the store saying "We don't have a pound can of that!" Yeah, he stopped and talked to us for like five minutes which was friggin' awesome. He is so damn skinny it angers me...okay, maybe not, but still. He tried pushing out his non-existant belly & was like "I'm fat!" Okay, maybe it was only funny to me.
Nimrod and I stayed up and talked forever. Then we fell asleep in the pull out couch while watching the STUPIDEST movie ever.
A very exciting weekend. Yeah, I'm talking to Man-pretty now, so I'm gonna go.

I love trees!

Wow, Chicken Giggles is my favorite. I didn't hear the whole joke, but I heard the word "woody" and laughed. It was something like, "Why do tree lovers love trees? Well, they're just giant woodies!" Yeah, I apologize for slaughtering your joke, Chicken Giggles.
Band was friggin' awesome. We had to clean out instruments and crap. Some of it was seriously scary. For washing out brass instruments we had to go to the guy's bathroom/dressing room thingy 'cause it has this gigantious sink. So I was in the guy's dressing room with Man-pretty, Reverse Mullet Boy, and Chicken Giggles' prom date Mr. Lord of the Dance.
Very fun. Especially the part when Man-pretty got some nasty green crap on his face and wipped it off with his shirt...his boxers were sticking out a little bit ; ) OH YEAH BABY!
LOL
Lunch was really great. His friends didn't talk to me at all, but they really didn't talk to him very much either. Volleyball sat by us for a few minutes, so we stared at her because she hated it so friggin' badly. It was great. I guess we talked quite a bit today.
Yeah, in American Studies, we were all doing Psoriasis' hair. Victim told me that it's funny seeing Man-pretty and I together because he thinks he's a sucky boyfriend, I think I'm a shitty girlfriend, and we don't know what to do. She says it's so cute because we both look awkward around eachother. Not quite sure on how exactly that's cute!

That was a weird conversation!

Today was a lot better than yesterday. Man-pretty's friends acknowledged that I'm there, which is cool. One of them even said stuff to me! I still liked it a lot more when they left though. That was when he talked a lot more. Joked around was a lot more like it. He kept doing this thing with his eyebrows; it was very cute. Then we were talking about something that reminded me of the conversation we had last night. Wow that was awkward!
Anyway, I actually understood geometry today, which was a plus! I don't think I failed my science test.
Yay! Man-pretty's online. Well, I'm gonna go talk to him now!

I can work around this!

Alright, I can overcome a lot of challenges, but this is a big one. Yesterday during lunch,
Man-pretty's band-mate people actually talked to me a little bit, but then one of them said something that implied he doesn't like me. Okay, that's fine. But today, when I was sitting next to Man-pretty, every time I tried saying something to him one of the guys would butt in and stop me. That's okay though, because I really like Man-pretty and I don't care if his friends don't like me! After they left, Man-pretty talked to me...then he ate some ketchup packets.
This morning before homeroom I was in the lab. That's where Man-pretty and Black's (his
ex-girlfriend) homeroom is. Black told me that he's a bad kisser, so I told her about my prior kissing experiances. He came in and she told him NOT to drool on me. Then he was like, "There's one good thing about being a paedophile. A guy's dick looks really big in those small hands!" That was...amusing. A few other things were said that weren't quite a s appropriate as that...if that's possible.
I love having a boyfriend, it's friggin' awesome. He asked me if I needed a ride home today, but lucky me, I had to stay after to retake my geometry test.
Yeah, after I finished my test, Mr. C asked me what was going on? "Don't you have time to study as much anymore?" He actually thinks I study. That's great!

Great and wonderful day!

Last night (after I posted), I was talking to Man-pretty online. When he had to leave, he said that he was going to talk me tomorrow (now today). Just keep that in mind while I tell you about the rest of my day.
Pink Piggy and I had to give a presentation on Stromboli today in science. It sucked horribly. Then in geometry Mr. C yelled at me because I didn't understand the makeup work I had because I was gone. That made me feel like shit.
Band was band. Afterwards, I was standing against the wall waiting for the bell to ring when Man-pretty walked up to me. He asked what was new & I said nothing much. Yeah, then I told him he smelled good. The bell rang and we walked down the hall.
Then he was all like, "Wanna go out?" I couldn't believe he asked me that. I was like, "What!?!?" He repeated himself and I said sure. So now Man-pretty and I are going out. Very exciting stuff.
I got to sit by him and some of the other guys in his band during lunch. One of them yelled at Man-pretty for bringing his "ass monkey" to the table. Man-pretty told me that he thinks Brad Pitt is hot. Is it bad that my boyfriend and I talked about Brad Pitt during lunch? Hehe.
During English we started working on the bridge project. That was fun. I was watching the clock in 4th block so I could go into the hall and smile at my boyfriend. WHOA, IT FEELS REALLY WEIRD SAYING THAT!!! I am so confused right now. I mean, I am so friggin' happy it's not even funny, but I don't know what to do. I've liked Man-pretty for 7 months, and now we're..........you get the picture.

I apologize to Chicken Giggles, My Favorite Blonde, and Perfectionist!

Today actually seemed to go really fast, which was a big surprise because it's Monday. Last night, I was talking to Man-pretty online and junk. Yeah, he sent me an e-mail telling about all these chicks that hit on him when he was on the German trip. Some girl even tried feeling him up! Why on earth would he tell me this...unless he's trying to make me jealous!
Yeah, I e-mailed him and asked him if the purpose of the e-mail was actually to make me jealous. Who really knows........
Seeing him again made me happy, I mean, I hadn't seen him since Wednesday! Seeing everyone was friggin' great since I wasn't at school Friday.
My presentation kicked ass today. Okay, maybe my portion didn't (I apologize to Chicken Giggles, My Favorite Blonde, and Perfectionist [she told me she prides herself in being a perfectionist]) go as great as the other people in my group...but it was better than the Menominee group. I cannot believe she just sat down in the middle of her thing and was done with it!

P.S. I have come to the conclusion that I want to go to college in Madison. I mean, when I was there for State, I was constantly in awe by the University and the surroundings. I really don't care if it's supposed to the the hardest school to get into in the state (plus the most expensive); I want to go there.