"We'll never be as young as we are right now." --Jim Steinman

Sunday, April 17, 2005

He who shall forever remain nameless

State: What can I say about it. It friggin' rocked! Alright, so we left at like 9:00 Friday morning. The drive to Madison was four of the best hours of my life. Not the best, but really awesome. I feel that if I was three years older, I would probably be friends with the four seniors that went. Homecoming Queen Candidate was one of them (for those of you who don't know who I'm talking about, think back to Homecoming...who plastered the school in "Vote *****" stuff?). I had to share a bed with her. She's really cool.
Then there was He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless. There was this guy, and stuff. We didn't fool around or anything, but he payed attention to me, which I haven't had a guy do for so long. I felt incredibly awkward because for the first time in like, 7 months all I could think about was a guy who was not Man-pretty. I mean, He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless is nothing in comparison, but he was nice to me and that was all I cared about. I'm not saying who he is, or what school he goes to because it's too much.
Anyway, back to Forensics. I got lost in down-town Madison. When we got there we were all attacked by a drunk, homeless man.
I competed and wouldn't look at my paper right away. I rolled it up and walked out. I met up with Homecoming Queen Candidate and I let her look at what I got. Then she accidentally told me that I got a 24!!! A 24 is out of 25. I got a second place as a freshman...which is outstanding!
When I got home, however, it wasn't as cool. My dad and his girlfriend were upset that I went shopping on State Street. Then today, my dad's girlfriend told me "It wouldn't hurt if you lost 10 pounds." Oh, I wanted to scream "HYPOCRIT" so loudly. I mean, my doctor told me that I'm normal weight for someone my height. She's not. It ruined my ever-so-wonderful weekend. Okay, maybe not because now I'm talking to Man-pretty. But he sent me an e-mail saying that this weekend he had a bunch of chicks hitting on him and some chick tried feeling him up! So maybe I shouldn't feel guilty about He Who Shall Forever Remain Nameless!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

What a friggin' douche!

Today I found out what it would be like if I had no friends. Seriously, almost all (not everyone went!) of my friends weren't at school today. A bunch of Freshmen went to Government day and a bunch of Juniors went on the German trip...including Man-pretty. He's going to be gone until Sunday.
During homeroom I actually managed to listen to the announcements and junk. They said that all the people going to State forensics this weekend had to go to the office to pick up a work completion form, which means I'm going to miss school. I didn't know that we were going to leave tomorrow after homeroom, spend the night in Madison, and then preform on Saturday. But hey, it's fine with me!
I found out today that my ex, Whelk Boy, is going to be in band next year. He's totally going to ruin the tuba section! Man-pretty plays the tuba. Since Whelk Boy is going to be in band, that means we'll have the same lunch and be in the same English classes for the next three years. Don't get me wrong, he's nice and everything, but since he broke up with me he treats me like I'm an idiot and that I can't do anything for myself.
Oh my goodness; Mr. H's substitute, Mr. S, is a friggin' douche bag! He was taking roll call or whatever you call it and when he got to my name he made fun of it. Am I wrong in thinking that teachers aren't supposed to make fun of you? I don't mean that he made a joke, he was all like: "What kind of spelling is that? Look at that, that's not how you spell ****!" Of course, I yelled at him; who wouldn't? That was incredibly rude...I think I should report him to the office, but I won't.

Wish me luck at State!!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Crap!

I expected the American Studies test to be unbearibly hard because I only studied for 15 minutes. Yeah, I was wrong. For the last test, I studied for two hours...and that was just the night before, not counting any days prior.
My lesson today kicked ass. I might be getting K's French horn because she got a new one. She also forgot to go to our lesson & Mr. K spent the entire time telling me how much I've improved this year!
Chicken Giggles (formally Peanuts) had her Prom pictures lost by IGA (YET ANOTHER REASON WHY IGA IS FRIGGIN' EVIL!!!) I plan on making copies of some of my pics to give to her. Wow, this was a really eventful day!
Tomorrow some people from band (myself included) get to go to the nursing home to play them stuff from Solo & Ensemble. Fun fun! I actually am excited for it.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

IGA sucks ass!

Prom kicked ass. Seriously, I had tons of fun. I danced with all my dawgs. It was slightly disturbing when those two seniors started stripping. Don't get me wrong, I like guys, but they had so much muscle it was........well, they're not my type! However, I really enjoyed it when the were doing the robot and break dancing.
Of course, I looked fantastic...for my standards anyhow. I really wish Man-pretty would have seen me though. When I e-mailed him Thursday I kinda figured he wouldn't get the e-mail until this weekend, which would mean it would be too late for Prom.
I was proven right when he responded to it. Wanna hear the shitty part that makes me feel ever so happy and like crap at the same time?!?! This is how he started his response:
Hey
Yeah, it's Sunday now. I would've asked, actually, but I had to work all day yesterday, like literally, from 1-8:30, and I had charcoal all over me after work from moving it around, so I looked like crap.

So he was going to ask me to go with him to Prom, but he knew he had to work. That, or he was going to ask me to dance. I'm not quite sure what he meant by "asking". I hate IGA with a passion now. I mean, I don't, but it seriously sucks! After that, he said that if he would've went, he would want it to be special.
Wow, I feel bad now. I want to respond to the e-mail, but I don't know what to say. If anybody has any suggestions please let me know!!!

Thursday, April 07, 2005

And it finally happens!

Two days of absolute.....funness and now this. Okay, so it wasn't that bad. I mean, today when I went to band, I opened up my cage and there was a CD in it. It was from Man-pretty! That made me happy, but it didn't make up for the fact that he's not going to Prom.
That's right, I have been looking forward to Prom for so long just so I could dance with and today I find out he's not going. He didn't even sit by us today at lunch. I mean, I really didn't expect him to, but the one day I had something I really, desperately wanted to ask him and I didn't get a chance to. He and I were in the lunch line together though. That made me giggle. I was wearing my "KISS ME QUICK!" shirt and he read it. Only when he read the "quick" part he turned his head and brought it really, really close to my "dug" (boobies). He's perverted, but I actually think he didn't mean it like that 'cause I know it's hard to read that shirt. LOL
Yeah, I really want to e-mail him and tell him stuff, but I don't think he would get it until Saturday night. So sad! :'(

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Two days in a row!

Okay, I just found this kinda funny because it's so true! It's my horoscope for today.

Pisces: Is this an instant replay of yesterday? It just might be -- as far as your heart is concerned, at least. You're still feeling extremely nostalgic, and particularly focused on the past. Don't be too upset about it, though. We're all entitled to take those emotional strolls down Memory Lane every now and then, and your sign has even more of a right. Right now, it's your turn -- and not a moment too soon.

Alright, so today rocked! In geometry, we got our tests back and I had 108% on my test that I was scared I was going to fail.
Back to the interesting stuff. During lunch I didn't expect Man-pretty to sit next to us again! He likes to rub his nipples a lot. Just as a joke of course, but I told him that he should stop 'cause I was gonna laugh too much...so he was like "You don't want me to rub my nipples? Does that mean you want me to rub yours?" That kinda made me laugh. Okay, I laughed a lot when he said that. Though, it was slightly disturbing. Then we talked about lots of stuff.
Pink Piggy and OA were all like "You should ask him if he's goin' to Prom with anybody...He wasn't just sitting there because he had no where else to sit. He sat there because you were there." That made me feel good.
After school, I was walkin' on the path over that gigantious hill and I saw his car. I just kept walking and stuff, but when I crossed the parking lot exit I crossed infront of his car. Yeah, he honked his horn at me and waved. He had this huge smile on his face when he did it too. It was friggin' awesome. I smiled the entire way home. I can't remember the last time I was this happy. I mean, it feels so good!

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Hung like a Teddy Grahm

Confused? You should be.
Today during band we were discussing where we should go for next year's music trip. Personally, I am already excited about it. Except, I'm not all too thrilled about going with SOME of the 8th graders. I mean, I like a lot of them, but not ALL of them. If my opinion counted (for this anyway), I would want to go to D.C. because I have never been there, plus it's the farthest away from here!
Today during lunch, Pink Piggy and I had been sitting there when Man-pretty just plopped down beside me. Yeah, I was kinda scared at first! He said he just didn't want to sit where he usually does. That was fine with me!
We talked about everything. He said it would be funny to see me kicked by a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader as long as I wasn't too hurt. Then the conversation went to the Teddy Grahms. Exactly what gender are they? I tore apart a peanut and gave one of them boobs, so Man-pretty took a sunflower seed and gave it a wang. "Wow, I think I just came up with a new saying: I'm hung like a Teddy Grahm!" He's hilarious. I had to remind him that if he said that around somebody who didn't know about the modified grain bear, that they would think him small in the pants.
The sad thing is, the entire time I was talking with him and Pink Piggy I had this thought running through my head:
What if I really would be happier if we remained "just friends"?

Monday, April 04, 2005

An uneventful day

Wow, I did almost nothing today. J's dilemma was a bit disstressing however. I am currently studying for my American Studies test. Joy joy.
I have come to the conclusion that posting these things is what to do. This one, I kinda swipped from Dora's blog (what do you think of that one!). Dora, you know who you are! LOL

first best friend: some guy named Matt, it was Kindergarten
first car: '95 Ford Escort...it's this color
first screen name: I really can't remember
first funeral: my great-grandma
first pet: Shadow...a cat that's still alive...she's 21 in people years
first piercing/tattoos: my ears are pierced & I plan on getting my belly button pierced when I'm 16 or so.
first credit card: not old enough
first big trip: I've only been to 3 states outside this one
first music you remeber hearing in your house: I'm gonna have to say Annie Lennox, who still rocks
first job: I guess babysitting
first crush: Tyler Wadzinski (does anyone see anything odd about this person...like his name?)

LASTS
last car ride: my dad drivin' me to my mom's
last kiss: I haven't been kissed in such a long time...over a year
last good cry: the other day...Wednesday I believe
last book read: the last book I finished...um, Knots and Crosses
last movie seen in theaters: Wow, I think it was Shark Tale...that's sad
last food consumed: Pizza...hey, I just realized I had pizza for dinner and lunc...LOL
last crush: Man-pretty
last phone call: my dad...he woke me up from a nap
last big trip: to Mall of America
last shoes worn: my ankle boots that have singe marks on them from when I lit myself on fire
last time scolded: I don't know
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: not at the moment
last hug: i can't remember...is that sad?

SPECIFICS
do you do drugs: Only the ones that I am perscribed
what kind of shampoo do you use: Garnier Fructis
what are you most scared of: rejection
where you want to get married: in order for me to get married, I am going to have to have a boyfriend, and to have a boyfriend, I need to either find a different guy who likes me, or get Man-pretty to cooperate
how many buddies are online: none
do you sleep nude: when it's hot out
what do you look for in the opposite sex: read the poem I wrote in English...that sums it up pretty well
one night stand: it depends I guess...currently, I'm too young
boxers or briefs: boy shorts
would you marry outside your race: of course
would you make out with just a friend: very much so...YES!!! hey Man-pretty, you said that we're friends right? ; )
would you have sex with just a friend: it depends on how good of a friend they were

FAVORITES
colors: red or pink
foods: pretty much anything, except fish
sports: soccer and the dance team

HAVE YOU EVER
smoked: no
bungee jumped: no
made yourself throw up: yes
skinny dipped: not that I recall...although I probably wouldn't pass it up
been in love: I am currently debating that issue
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no
pictured your crush naked: OF COURSE!!! I had a dream about that the other night! ; )
fallen for your best friend: yeah
done something you regret: I think everyone has
been caught doing the deed: exactly what deed?

CURRENT
clothes: pajama pants & shirt
music: i'm watchin' TV...but I think in a minute I will put in HOT FUSS by The Killers
make up: whatever is still on from this morning
annoyance: my headache/muscle spasm
smell: my American Studies notebook 'cause my face is planted in it
desktop picture: Danny Smith baby!!! (see one of the previous posts)
book your reading: The Dark Tower IV: Wizard and Glass by Stephen King...yeah, Man-pretty is lending it to me
underwear: some kinda cute maroon things i found in my closet this morning

ARE YOU
understanding: I try to be
open minded: Yes, very much so
hungry: Not really
moody: yes
healthy: Not very...I am currently on three different prescriptions
bored easily: very much so
angry: I really don't get angry & when I do, I don't stay that way
sad: generally, yes
dissappointed: only when it comes to myself
happy: hmmm...most people would say yes, but not always
hyper: Lemons and Hyper are like synonymms (that's not spelt correctly)
talkative: I'm 15 and I'm female
easy: to get along with or sexually? hmmm...I haven't gotten any action in over a year.........
honest: I try to be
open to new things: of course

Sunday, April 03, 2005

I don't care what he says, he loves me!!!

Can anyone tell that I am estatic? Friday night (after I posted, otherwise it would have been included) I talked with Man-pretty. Prior to that, I had been talking to BB (sorry, BB, I know it's a really lame name, but I'm still thinkin') and bitchin' about how Man-pretty's a douche and all that crap.
Yeah, I didn't know what else to say! I was really surprised that he apologized though. It was really sweet of him! Yeah, we talked for a while more and he gave me the address of my new favorite website. I'm not sure whether I had a part in him breaking up with Black. I mean, I probably didn't, but I did look kinda pathetic when I talked to him the other day...it was hard not to cry.

Yesterday, my mom scared the crap out of me. She called crying and saying that she was going to the emergency room. Obviously, I started crying too. She thought her appendix was going to explode...yeah, she went and now she's on medication. They haven't quite established what it is, but they said whatever it is, it's minor. That was a relief.
Today I found out that Victim IS moving. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. The good thing is, the area that she's moving to is near some people that we visit a lot, and when we're there I can probably visit her. Yeah, my dad was all like, "I like the house they live in, we should move in there." I really think we should because then she'll have my address to write, her house will remind me of her....and the fact that it's a ten minute walk from Man-pretty's house. I don't know, my dad has been saying that we're gonna move out of this crapy house for quite some time now and it still hasn't happened. I hope she doesn't move soon, because I want more time with my Victim!

Friday, April 01, 2005

Am I actually in a good mood?

Yesterday, during geometry, we had a study day. Black's in my class and when she finished her work she came up to me and we talked for about ten minutes. I was reminded of the fact that I like her; I mean, she's really nice and I want to get to know her better. I guess I'm not mad at her. She doesn't know how I feel toward Man-pretty. Talking to her made me feel better for some reason. I guess just talking to people helps...LOL!
Okay, today during geometry Mr. C was being really kinda gross. That's all I have to say on that.
I walked into band today and I think I caught Man-pretty starin' at me a little bit. I mean, he might not have been, but I'm almost positive. I don't know now. Maybe I just wish he was.
Shorty told Pink Piggy that Man-pretty wants to break up with Black because he doesn't like her. If he does/did that would be nice for me. I feel bad saying that, but it hurts seeing her sitting in the passenger seat of his light blue Malibu.